Break up :(

harini jumaat yg paling sedih bg aku..ak xsangka!!!xsangka!!! dan xsangka!!knape boleh terjadi begini..ape salah daku sehingga dia tergamak mengatakan sedemikian..he wants break up with me...ouchh,,**setan**!!!in my mind''WHY??WHY??...have i did anything wrong?? so sad,,what i do only cry...cry..n cry.....:(..dia xpernah bergaduh dgnku sebegini apatah lagi mengucapkan kata2 sebegitu.ak rasa malam tuh ader lah mlm yg paling duka bg aku..xdpt aku bygkan when he said''let us break up for a while..he needs to find his true himself...he needs to settle down all the problem...and he said,dun wory,he will come to find me after...Can you imagin how i feel that time??....thank god!!!i think i feel like to kill myself..****censored****!!****censored****!! ****censored****!!....even he gots da problem,,his never like this before..i am too shocked!!!when he likes that way..ak bersyukur cgt2...sekurng2nya aku bace msg dier after aku amek adik k dari asrama...i can't imagine if i read that msg before i took my lil.sis...maybe now i'm in i.c.u.....or maybe????...thank god!!aku xpernah begini sebelum nih..dan dier pn xpenah begini..ini terlalu tekejut bagi ku tok mnerima ny...betapa kut dan teruk masalah die...sehinggakan dier berucap begitu padaku....i call him,,he never pick up...when i try again call him,,then he pick up my fon...he is still same...need me to accept and understand him...what can i say,,i jux say to him thanx+bye...then i cry..cry,,n cry....i think im too stupid...why im crying...**censored**..stupid,,idiot..honestly i say,,i can't breath wihout him...i can't!!! i can't!!!...ya allah,,bantuilah aku..berikan aku kekuatan ya allah...i need sum1 to help me...then intan call me..and she try to cool me...diela,,caca,,adik also trying me...giv support to me...from the beginning,,he's never say like this...and he is not like him...disebalik lubuk hatiku,,aku dapat gasekan yg masalah yg ditimpa nya begitu dhsyat sehingga dier mengatakan sebegitu padaku...and that nite,,,,im start my car n i go out alone to make my mind control again...then,,suddenly i get his msg...and told,,sayang,,i can't do this..i can't breath without u....i can't break up with u even 1 second...when i heard he say like this,,,i know,,he can't life without me..i cry..n i cry with him....and last he tell me da pobz....n now,i know why he did like that to me....lastly,,the GOD still save us!!!thanxx god...he and me